Currently, i’m sitting at Panera Bread typing this, not my usual Starbucks.  I feel like im cheating.  I just got back from picking up my nieces from school and dropping them off.  I had to go in with them to use the restroom and walked out with 5 packs of girl scout cookies.  wtf?

Still no job.  I do have an interview tomorrow.  But at 35, I’m looking for something I am going to stick with. Even while having a college education, bouncing around job to job does not look good.  I think that if I had children, I would have taken the job scene more seriously.  That’s not to say im not nervous about bills , but taking care of a kid would cost a hell of lot more than what my wife and I have to worry about right now.

Earlier there was a guy on the corner of the intersection asking for money.  As i’ve stated before, I usually give them a few bucks.  It’s funny when the person behind me gets mad when its a green light and i slow down to hand them the money.  I know I could be the one standing on the corner and i hope someone would stop for me.  The same person who is bitching at me for helping this guy is probably the same person who has no problem giving 10% of their check to their church.  I find it funny when people act as though they are “saved” just because they give a donation or attend church on the regular, yet act like they are better than others the rest of the time.  I hate that churches are not taxed.  If they were, this national debt would be cleared up in a heartbeat.

I’ve started reading up on the Church of Satan.  No, i’m not turning to Satan or plan on becoming a devil worshiper.  It’s a legit religion and I wanted to know more about it.  I did the same thing with Islam.  I will say the one thing I like about the Church of Satan is that it is not thrown in your face like Christianity or Catholicism. I remember back in the 80’s when Rivera did a “news” story about satan worship.  I watched it again, thanks to youtube and it was still comedy. No, you don’t have to drink blood or sacrifice a baby. lol

I don’t understand how people can pay these expensive ass prices here at Panera.


Well, I went to the doctors last Monday to discuss some issues I’ve been having with my eyes.  For some reason, my vision seems to have gotten a little blurry, especially in my left eye.  The VA had me do some vision test and they took labs.  The eye exam consisted of a pressure test and pics of my eyes.  The pressure test read 26 for my left eye, with a normal reading being 20 or below.  The right eye pressure read at 21. I’m thinking damn, my eyes going to explode. lol  The VA didn’t think it was that big of a deal since the veins in my eyes look normal, so yeah I guess i’ll just have to look like the guy from Total Recall. download Now the awesome part, my labs.  My glucose read at 191 and it’s supposed to be between 65-100.  With that being what it is, my metformin is switched to 1000mg when it was 500mg twice a day.  The thing that got me though, was the comment section stated my diabetes has gotten a little worse.  WTF man?  I don’t drink soda anymore. I eat snacks, but not a ton.  My triglycerides are at 354 mg/dL, supposed to be less than 150.  This one doesn’t really surprise me though being that i weigh about 280.  Well, I guess it’s going to have to be the gym everyday now.  Honestly, the only thing about diabetes that scares me is the losing my sight.  That’s why I was worried about my vision.  I’ll go through the bullshit of losing my leg or feet, but my sight, hell no.

Change of subject…

When my uncle was still alive, we would go metal detecting.  Not as much as I would have liked to, but we were both working so we went when we could.  Anyways, what i’ve noticed when i’ve gone these past two years, I’ll catch myself talking to him.  Asking him where he would search.  He either doesn’t want to help, or he is giving me bad locations cause i haven’t found shit but a few coins.

anonymousA part of me hopes that Anonymous takes down the internet, cellphones and satellite for a few days. I would think that those of us who grew up in the age before cell phones, internet and satellite would be able to survive.  But after thinking about it, I think we are so intertwined in the web, that we wouldn’t be able to handle it either.  I say this because I think that the media is garbage.  Let’s look at the black vs white situation we have going on now.  White cops get attacked by blacks, shoot blacks for attacking them and now its the cops fault.  Yet, you have incidents were blacks are attacking whites and not a damn word is said.  No protest, no riots, no 24 hour CNN coverage.  If you’re going to cover the news, cover all of it.  Don’t make it a black vs white, white vs black thing.  Stop giving cops a bad name when it’s 1% of them that are screwing up.  Same can be said for blacks and other races, 1% can label the whole group.  One bad apple spoils the bunch. Its also hard to prove that the cops have it out for you when your dumb ass goes and shoots at them during a demonstration.  I say just take all the cops out of ferguson and let the citizens fend for themselves, they wont be able to bitch about anything if there are no cops.   I haven’t been shot by any cops lately, probably because I don’t go attacking them.  Just sayin.


It’s been awhile since I’ve last written I know, but it’s been a crazy time in my life.  I’m still looking for another job, that hasn’t changed. I have had interviews, but i’m looking for a career move, not just another job.  The problem i’m having right now is that i’m either too over qualified, or just not qualified enough.  It really pisses me off that here I am with a bachelor degree, working on my masters and can’t get assistance.  Yet, you have third generation welfare families with no high school diploma and they have a fridge full of food, cable, cellphone, $36 for rent and haven’t worked in years.  Sonny was right,the workin man is a Sucka! – Bronx Tale

I almost have my costume ready for Chicago’s WizardCon.  I’m going as Barf from spaceballs and my niece is going as batman.  I’m crazy excited to take her cause she is such an awesome kid and I think she will have a blast.  I’m taking my nephew to his first wwe ppv next month which i know will make him shit his pants.  Not being able to have kids myself, i enjoy doing those types of things with my nieces and nephews.  Now if i can only get my nephew addicted to hockey lol

This weekend, i decided to go visit my biological mom in Missouri.  I have not lived with her since I was about 6, so unfortunately when i visit, we tend to argue about something. She has her way of thinking and i have my dads.  It doesn’t mix.  So yeah, we got into an argument because my mom has beef with her niece,my cousin.  My cousin asked me to go to lunch with her and my other cousins, however because of this dumb ass beef, my mom was having none of it.  However, i’m 35 and i’m going to do what i want, so i went and had an awesome time catching up with my cousins.  My mom said some things to me that I wont put on here but didn’t make me feel very good, especially coming from a mom.  I love my mom no matter what, after all she is my mom. It’s just hard when you have not lived with someone or been at least in the same state as someone for over 25 years.  Personalities and attitudes clash. I do have a step mom,but i introduce her as mom to people i meet.  She has been my mom since i was like 6.  I’ve just never got around to calling her mom, don’t know why.  I should since she is the one who has raised me..it’s difficult to explain I guess.

I did however have a kick ass time with my sister and her husband.  My sister and i also have never lived together really except for maybe till she was 4.  We usually fight ever damn time we see each other.  She is strong minded as am I and we don’t hold back.  But for some reason, this time we bonded unlike before. If there is one thing i wish I could go back and change in my life, it is that i would have been a better brother to both of my sisters.  I try to make up for it now that we are older, but there are many years that could and should have been better.

It’s actually funny how when your body is sick, you start to think about the life you have lived and things you would have changed, like it’s going to heal you now.  Actually that is not very good to do, it can bring depression and anxiety and make you feel worse.

I love Paige from WWE, just getting that out there.