UVALDE, Texas

While I was at my daughters school for her festivities, I looked along the row of chairs that they had the children sit in. I would say it was probably 20 to 25 kids all sitting there smiling laughing, doing what little kids do. I looked at my daughters mom and I said you know what, for perspective, that whole row of white chairs is gone. She knew exactly what I meant. Here are these children, growing up in a shitty world. Not knowing that just two hours earlier 18 little people like them, were murdered in cold blood.

I don’t cry over the news, I think it’s because I’ve been desensitized, but I will admit this one hit different. There is no reason why a person would wake up, drive to an elementary and start shooting. What is bothering me the most and making me sick to my stomach is the other day Sophia was getting upset because she couldn’t put her shoes on and she finally said help me daddy. Now think about the sounds that those children made and the screams of help for mommy and daddy that went unanswered.

These kids did not deserve this, their families did not deserve this, law-enforcement and medics that had to walk into that school and see those lifeless bodies did not deserve this.

When I looked on Twitter, the first post that I saw was not a “pray for the parents”, it was about gun control. How much of an ignorant insensitive fuck do you have to be to politicize the death of 18 children before their bodies are even off the floor? These children were three days away from being on their summer break, and now their families have to prepare a funeral.

Pathetic

I was just reading up on a story about Shemene Cato, 48, who brutally attacked her 9 year old daughter Shalom Guifarro and her 13-year-old sister for two hours before mortally injuring her daughter on Sunday. (Brooklyn mom ignored daughter’s pleas of ‘help me’ after fatal beating: prosecutors, New York Times)

As a parent, how the hell do you ignore cries of “help me” from your child? The 9 year old and her sister were being spanked/punished for a missing tablet. Shalom, ran to her room and hid under the bed. The piece of shit mom lifted the bed to find her and then dropped it, leading to it hitting Shalom in the head, causing internal bleeding.

I joke around about kids needing to get their ass whooped, and yes, some of them do. However, not to the point that the kid will be traumatized, injured, or killed. I know certain demographics discipline their children the way they were disciplined. Basically a learned behavior of discipline that is repeated with each generation.

I got whooped plenty of times and sometimes I learned from it, other times, it just made me scared of my dad. Was he like that because he was being mean, or because that what my grandpa did to him or his brothers/sisters? With my daughter, I have already said that I will not raise a hand to her. Will I yell? Yeah probably, but I will not spank her. I want her to understand the reason why she is in trouble, not to be scared of her father.

This mom was charged with 2nd degree murder. I understand she did not intentionally mean to injure her daughter to the extent of her dying, but when your child is screaming for help, get off your fucking ass and check on them.