A letter to my unborn child.

Dear ***********

Your mother is in the living room sleeping on the couch because you are making it too uncomfortable for her to sleep on the bed, guess you can say you are already being difficult. I on the other hand, am sitting here in the bedroom thinking how much my life is going to change when you finally come into this world.  I’ve stated before that I started a new chapter in the book of life when I started to date your mother, but you little girl, are going to be a whole new book.  A book that I never thought I would have in my hands.

I sit here wondering what you are going to look like.  We’ve seen ultrasound pictures, but those are just pixels on a piece of paper.  Will you have my eyes?  Will you have your moms’ lips?  Hopefully you have her hair, although your mom has already said she hopes you don’t.

When your mother said she was pregnant, I knew that my life was no longer about me, it was about you.  People have told me that I am going to spoil you, and they’re probably right, but I’m also going to be hard on you.   I’m going to be hard on you because my job is to be your father, not your friend.  You won’t understand that for probably the first 20 years of your life, but you will.

You’re coming into this world with a mom who is going to love and care for you tremendously. I know this because she already does the same with your brother and sister.  Your mom is very chill…as long as you listen. So, my advice to you is to do what your told. Cause honestly, I don’t want to hear your mom yell.

As for the other people in the family, they will love you in their own way. I’m sure your brother and sister will pick on you just as I picked on your aunts.  And I know your grandparents are going to spoil the heck out of you and it’s going to upset me when I tell them no to something and they’ll do it anyways.  But that’s ok, it their job as grandparents.

As for me, your dad.  Well…  I’m going to cheer you on as you take your first steps. I’m going to cheer you on as you ride your bike for the first time without your training wheels.  I’m going to cheer you on when you get stage fright in the school play.  I’m going to cheer you on as you walk to get your diploma.

I’m going to support you when you do a goofy volcano for a science project. I’m going to support you when you choose what career you are going to go to college for. I’m going to support you when you tell me you are in love with your boyfriend…. or girlfriend.

I’m going to love you the moment our eyes meet in the delivery room.  I’m going to love you when you draw on the wall.  I’m going to love you when you don’t get an “A” in math. I’m going to love you when you tell me you hate me as you slam your bedroom door. I’m going to love you when you start to date a boy that I disapprove of.  I know all of this because I love you more than anything in the world right now and we haven’t even met.

Love,

Dad

Oscars 2016

Not even 5 minutes in and already tired of hearing about this bullshit white oscar controversy.  I understand that there may be some who say that there are not enough black nominees.  That’s fine to have your views on that.  But to say that the Academy must nominate people of color, kind of puts the whole “not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character” thing out the window.  If studios stop green lighting stupid movies like this, 

and start releasing movies that show how good black (minority) actors can be, then perhaps the Acadamy would be more willing to nominate them.

Chris Rock is comedy. I like his take on the whole white oscar situation.  He’s right, not everything is racist and not everything is sexist.

Charlize Theron is so gorgeous.  She could walk out covered in dog shit and still look amazing.

I love Stacey Dash.  She is the kind of person who could give two shits on what you think of her and her views and I love it.  I can’t believe how old she was when she was in Clueless, she’s now actually 50 (or close to it). 64825

 

 

 

Priyanka Chopra…i’d suck a fart out of her ass. Not a fan on her voice though.

You know, the Oscars is three hours long. I think they could shave off an hour if they didn’t include the makeup, audio, storyboards, etc.

I’m still cracking up that Stallone was nominated for an Oscar and Michael B. Jordan wasn’t.  I mean, I understand it’s only for best supporting actor but come on.

Lady Gaga could sing over a trash compactor and make it sound amazing.  She has such a beautiful voice.

Finally Leo got his award.  Took a damn bear to get it.

Made you look!

Today sucks balls.  I have that “i don’t give a shit” attitude right now and I know that’s not good.

First issue of the day, let’s talk about school.  I have one class left for my masters degree.  Guess who ran out of financial aid money?  This guy.  So not only do I have to pay uncle sam back for this bs degree, but now i have to pay out of pocket for my last class.  I damn near begged my school for a scholarship, but they weren’t having it.  Basically it’s shit in one hand, wish in the other.  I have no idea what i’m going to do with this degree other than hang the paper on the wall next to my bachelors.

So here I am, creating a  gofundme account for $1700 bucks to help pay for my last term and not a single donation.  (Mind you, i’m not working right now and only get my military disability as income, and i deleted that go fund me account).  Yet, this arrogant fuck, Kanye West can whine that he is $53 million in debt and some ass tard sets him up a go fund me and it reached a little over $8000 as of this writing.  Society has their priorities fucked.

comfort_Rheem_BillboardSpeaking of school, for my class I just had, I had to make a bullshit marketing billboard that dealt with suicide awareness and come up with a name for it. I felt this assignment was a joke, so i treated it as such.

 

 

 

Second issue of the day is the damn TSA. I’m still waiting on a response from them on if I’ll be able to move on to the next step of the job qualifications.  They had to put my medical on hold due to my diabetes.  They said i had to get a pass from my doctor saying that i was in ok health with diabetes.  My doctor passed me and now i’ve been waiting for a month to find out the results from TSA.  I understand that with it being a federal job, it’s going to be hurry up and wait like the military was.

Third issue of the day.  I spoke to my dad again yesterday about the possibility of moving to TX.  He said “well son, you have to do what you have to do”.  That’s the problem, if i did what i had to do, I would have robbed a fkn bank already…can’t pay the bills with monopoly money.  As much as i talk about wanting to move to TX, the big problem I have is that I have so many relatives that are getting up there in age, I don’t want to get a phone call saying one passed, then having to come up with funds to fly back here.  This leads me to my fourth issue of the day.

Fourth issue of the day.  Death is inevitable. I was at my aunt’s house last night where my grandparents live.  While there, my grandpa said something to my aunt that really struck a chord with me.  I won’t say what is was, but it further cemented the truth that people are only here for certain amout of time…then poof you’re gone.  It would be nice to have people in your life forever, but physically it’s not possible.  Of course you can be hooked up to a machine and let it live for you,but it’s just a body, not a person.  Its funny that here i am worried about how I or my family is going to be when other people in our family passes, when after I write this blog, I could get into a head on collision and….

 

 

Random things on my mind…

 

Kids today will never know the following things…

The scary sound of the National Anthem being played at midnight when stations would conclude their broadcasting for the day.

Hearing Harry Carey mispronounce damn near everyone’s name.

Pouring a box of your favorite cereal and sitting in front ofthe tv to watch Saturday morning cartoons.  (Or in my case, having to eat nasty ass rice crispy’s) You could turn on ABC and be set for four hours of awesomeness. There is something about hearing ABC’s bumper that is nostalgic.   

Of course, if you were lucky enough to have cable, you could watch the Cartoon Express.

Kids today will never know the feeling of having to get up to change the channel on the cable box, sit down, and having to get up to change the channel again, because their parent doesn’t want to get off the couch.

Knowing that when you see this on HBO, it was about to go down.

Feeling the sting of a big rubber ball against your face because you were too slow to move during dodge ball or smear the queer.  Come to think about it, smear the queer probably wasn’t the most appropriate name.

We had one WGN and it played all the Cubs game.  And rest easy knowing that Kevin Sorbo is Hercules.

Running to answer the phone, only for the caller to have hung up and you have no clue who just called since there was no caller ID.

Being on a time limit while on the world wide web.  And hearing this beautiful sound.

And then hearing someone yell “i’m trying to use the phone, get off”

Playing outside without having to worry about getting shot or kidnapped.

Actually being scared of parent teacher conferences.  Knowing that you’ll probably get an ass whoopin when you get home.  Or in my case, get that whoopin right there in school.

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.  (now these little shits need a “safe zone” to be free of hurtful words. lol Ridiculous.)

Buying a pack of cigs for your mom.

Going through airport security without getting felt up.

Making friends with the kids in the neighborhood by actually going outside, not sending a friends request.

Getting picked for the Grand Prize Game.

Hiding under a blanket so your parents don’t have to pay for you at the drive in.

Blowing into a NES cartridge.

Not being medicated for every little thing.

Sticking a pencil in a tape to rewind or fast forward.  Or…to just see how fast you can do it, till it flies off the pencil.

Going to school with 3 feet of snow or 100 degrees out.

Just being a kid and not having to worry about all of society’s problems.

 

 

09/29/2014

Wow, it’s been about two months since i’ve been on here.  I am now working again, thankfully.  However I have been sick since last Tuesday and have had to call in twice. I think that we can all agree that twice in a one month period is too much, but i’m damn near dying over here.  I have an upper respiratory infection and have been put on antibiotics.

When i last wrote, I spoke of my wifey and I going to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico.  It was not too bad except if we were to go again, I would not book the Hilton.  I’ve stayed at the Hilton before, but this place was not up to par.

Thank god hockey starts in about 10 days.  My dad and I are going to the home opener for the Blackhawks.  I’ve never been to a home opener so it should be fun.  We are also going to a game on Nov. 16th along with my bro in law. My dad is trying to convince me to go up to Detroit for the Hawks Redwings game on Nov. 14th.  Which means 6 hours of my dad driving to detroit, staying the night at my uncles, then heading to Chicago early Sunday morning.

So I learned that my ex supervisor that I had at CADS walked out.  Happy for him, they treated him like shit.  When an organization has people resigning or walking out, maybe the board should take a step back and look at upper management.  Also, it has come to my attention that the CEO looks at my blogs here.  Well Sir, you keep running your mouth, expect a Defamation, Libel and Slander lawsuit.  That also pertains to your yes men in HR.

Big ups to Whitney Houston, she’s been clean for over 2 years now.

6/19/14

Today was not a bad day really.  Dad picked me up in his new ride and we went to lunch with my nieces.   I got a lead about a security guard position at the Rock Island Arsenal today and a friend of mines husband is one of the Sgt’s there.  Interview is next Friday and being that I have the Security Forces background, it should go okay.  So, back in the day…like 3 years ago I used to do this thing on Youtube called “Things on my Mind”.  It was basically a bitch and gripe session with me talking about issues that are going on not only in the US but around the world.  Well, instead of making a video, allow me to do a “Things on my Mind”, wordpress edition.

5- What’s the deal with your Guy Fawkes tattoo?10441200_10152483498189326_5506299916194298092_n  The mask actually has a few meaning to it.  It originally gained its popularity in V for Vendetta, but then became symbolic for different types of protest.  I wanted the words “Ideas are bulletproof” tattooed under the face, but my tattooist said the letters would be too small and wouldn’t like good a few years from now.  “Ideas are bulletproof” basically means that no matter how much society or the government tries to silence you, they can never silence your ideas or thoughts.

4-What’s the deal with your “BeLIEve” tattoo? 10427232_10152483521824326_614265202046238193_n The image is actually a piece of artwork done by Derek Hess who is an awesome artist.  I put the beLIEve under it as symbolism.  The picture looks like Jesus on the cross (without the cross of course).  I was raised catholic and still am to this day, however I don’t practice it.  I don’t believe in the bible and I don’t believe you have to go to church or pay towards the church, in order for you to be forgiven or go to heaven.  The church says you need to believe in everything it preaches for you to be saved, and I think that’s a lie.  I don’t have to go to a building to talk to Jesus, I don’t have to give 10% of my check to the church to talk to Jesus, I don’t have to believe in a book that is used in today’s society as a “Go to heaven for Dummies” book.  I believe that women should get abortions, I believe that gays should be able to get married and have children.  I believe that priest should be able to get married.  I also don’t necessarily believe in hell.  I think that if one wants to get into heaven they need to do good and accomplish good during their time on Earth, if not, they get reincarnated.  So hell is you having to do all this over again, losing loved ones, being abused, winning the lottery, whatever, but you have to do good this time around or …you get to do it again.

3- Obama.  WTF?  I voted for President Obama twice.  I also voted for Bush and Clinton.  Obama is pissing me off something fierce.  First, Sgt. Bowe Bergdahl is freed after we hand over 5 terrorist.  Now I know the “we don’t negotiate with terrorist” thing is bullshit.  We’ve negotiated with all kinds of terrorist in the past.  Reagan did it during the Iran-Contra affair, so again it’s not new.  What pisses me off though is that we gave up 5 shitheads that have already vowed to fight against the United States again.  I don’t think Bergadahl is the poor little soldier that some are portraying.  Second and number 2….

2- Iraq.  Iraq get their shit together and now wants the US to come play babysitter again.  To fucking bad.  I would think different if the Iraq’s were behind us the entire time after we “liberated” them from Saddam, but when Iraq’s started to kill our troops, then screw you and your ugly camel.  Now, I’m not dumb, I know the US wasn’t always doing the right thing over there, but when you are doing your fifth deployment in as many years, you are bound to snap.  Our guys trained those men to fight for their country, and what happens?  These dumbass’s are abandaning thier post or are getting kidnapped then executed.  Shoot back you dumbshits.  Anyways back to Obama.  He stated that we would not send any troops back to Iraq.  However today, he states that he will be sending back 300 US military advisors.  WTF are these advisors going to tell the insurgents? “fightings bad emkay”  Come on man…

1-Fox News is a joke, but CNN isn’t far off with their bullshit breaking news every goddamn half hour.  Matter of fact, last night I was changing the channels when I came across CNN Breaking News Special Report, I was like aaah shit…you know what it was?  Fucking OJ SIMPSON car chase from 20 goddamn years ago.  Really CNN…really?  I just sat on my couch with a dumbfounded look on my face.  CNN, you really aren’t helping yourselves.